so now I'm approached all the times with sex suitors as I call them. I get friendly emails from guys as well but I know the validation factor is huge. Like the male ego. So I try to take things seriously & have joy & peace in my heart ;) from God, from staying close to Him

work 4 free

I want to work for free. So I do. I hope to always be able to. So not a care about money, just love. Help. Aid. Assist. I feel a bit sad 2day. A bit shaken. I guess being Good Friday, that is a good feeling. It's hot, humid really. I miss the sugar & white flower I cut out 6 days ago. My body is in detox. I feel like i did when i x'd smoking. so edgy, and i live w/mold and that makes me so draggy. Always we have headache, muscle aches, and my kids & I are so sick from it. I have been cleaning for over 6 months now and it seems like it will take forever to get rid of everything ;( If i do then i/we have nothing. i guess i must trust that God will replace all that we need. ok, so getting the time and energy to get rid of it all. i wish i had help ;( but no one wants to come near it and i am all alone in cleaning this huge garage filled with mold ;( i want to just throw all the boxes out as is but my ex says he will sue me if i throw out all his stuff. He wont clean out his stuff though ;( so i am sick & tired always and hard to even move. i'm stuck working in this mold filled house with no car to even get away ;( not that i can relate to the pain and suffering of Jesus but it feels close.

My kids have been kidnapped by their dad and he wont give them back. they are in bad conditions and i pray all the time for their safe return. i am in a state of pain all the way around.

So i try to focus on the good & glory of God and that makes me better. I am joyous always even in my problems. i will not fear and i will know that God eases my burdens and it says that in the bible & i know now how that is true.

i am feeling sorrow for the world today. sorrow for the ppl in pain. sorrow for those who know no joy.

i have been there too

I wish 4 today that every creature could feel the comfort and joy of God. I pray all humans find the comfort & joy of knowing God in their heart & soul.

I long for Heaven but wish and pray for all of God's children to feel joy on earth in rejoicing always

i know God takes the bad and turns it to better than good. Great! Glorious! I am just praising God in the waiting time ;)

and praying for a way out of the mold. all new everything. it all seems so impossible but i know God loves to surprise us with Miracles! no transportation for 6 months now and i have not suffered. i have lost out on income which bothers me but i guess i do not need money

i just need God