it is so not right, not fair. Everything in this world just sucks. I have never had a relationship with a man that was not abusive and now because of that I get to watch my kids be abuse. The courts can't help me or them. Only criminals get public defenders not children and mothers who need help for their kids. I can't afford a lawyer and that means evil wins once again.
All these people in the world with so much money and no one to help my kids.
It sucks that this world is so unjust.
I guess Satan knew all I ever wanted in the whole world was a family. A kind loving home with a man to love us. A Dad to be someone to look up to, a man to love.
I never had that my whole life. Not with my Dad, not with my first Husband and not with the second one either. Both times I just married a guy just like my Dad. Angry and abusive, scary & mean.
Now that I am older and my kids are not with me anymore I am alone with my thoughts. I am always alone. I eat by myself and watch TV alone and yet I have the abusive men still causing my children and I such pain.
Will the cycle ever be broken
I wish I would meet a man who was God honoring. Someone to show my kids how it's suppose to be
I guess I just get to learn and teach them. My two little ones are still with me and I can teach them about God and how he meant it to be
I pray that my older two kids will be able to come home one day soon and we can all live together in peace without any abuse
One day we will live in a big house with everything we need. Love and peace and we will never have to move or hear evil again
