Why Do We Have To Pay In The US To Avoid Ads?

I avoid commercials. Ever since I was a kid I hated them. TV ads. selling you something. Faking you out to sell you a lie. Not always. Bust mostly. Greed. Lust. Lies. Hate. Envy. Hmmm so forgive me Matt Damon that I dont care that you are next to me at the gas station. Alone, just mee and you for a whole tank of gas fill up. It was quiet and I had a lot on my mind. My ex just left me and I had to put my kids in day care. It was a beautiful afternoon in Newport and I was by my Mecca Fashion Island (oh and the back bay is beautiful ;)

So smile your handsome grin and move along. I have kids and a life and yes I know who you are. The pc I use for my profile pics was just done and I guess i looked the best I ever had. I longed for that day. To be hot, strong, powerful, and in control. Rich in OC and loving life. I look back and think yes, it was my prime time in life as now I hear your 30's are. All grown up and feeling great. Happy and free and on your own. Healthy and fit and if you live in LA fashionable.

I loved all of that. I just hated the ppl

I hated the ppl running everything. I hated the way the government ran the ppl and the ppl were stupid.

It mad me mad. and then I got sad later in my 30's and healed more. I came into my 40's feeling great. Shortly after I was alone. I realized that I pick angry men. Just like i was. How I had evolved and changed over the last 4 ass holes and I was done being some guys punching bag to take all his anger out ~ get a shrink! That's what the're for! They were all really hard core tough guys that hated the same things i did. Except I never hated God. I was just really, really angry.

I knew He could take it and He became my coach. My life coach. My trainer. I went to My God for everything. I saw my moms fears and my dads drinking and I knew hate and anger. I knew pain. They both knew pain and all my relatives did too. It was a lifetime of pain and disfunction for my whole generation. For the world. I grew up with so much war. Gangs from all countries fighting it out in my county ;) I loved that ;) Heck, if I was in pain, come join me ;) I do what my dad always said not to do (of course ~ I was a true teen age rebel ;) I didnt stay away from the Orange Jumpsuits ;) Gosh, how did that happen! White crime first. Mafia. Organized fear. Comes in all gangs, I was just Italian. Mafia is My Family in Italian.

Oh, every county has organized crime. Fear. Satan is the ruler of that. Most ppl have no problem to belive in bad, just have a hard time with God. Good.

God, help me to endure my blessings ;) The sober yentas of alanon would say ;)

sabotage, the jews would say ;) Great song btw and gr8 hate band as i call them haters. woman haters ppl haters grown up haters rebells for satan. dark angels bad demons. They do exist. We only talk about them around Halloween (or in the media ;)

At church we relate it to life. The journey of life ;)

I say Evolution of Man ;)